Happy Birthday

July 1st, 2000

Marriage is give and take. You’d better give it
to her or she’ll take it anyway.
– Joey Adams

Once more, the magnificence of the occasion has caused great turbulence and mishap in my life. Maybe I am destined forever to suffer at the hands of the public holiday. Today saw the rapid and painful destruction of what was shaping up to be an attempted reconciliation for Jenny and I. I say that with a casual air and a sense of finality that I am sure will evoke some sort of reaction but that is not the reason for it. The reason for it is to help me to sort out in my mind what my intentions are. I am pretty sure that at this point I am mired in the Leopard’s Spots camp and that the ideas and explanations running through my mind right now are firmly pointed in the direction of my being and remaining single for some time to come.

Long story short (for my own brevity since it is now 4:26am) we so obviously rub each other the wrong way and in her naïveté (maybe) or her stubbornness (more likely) she dragged a side from me today that I haven’t seen in many, many years. Frankly, it was not a pretty sight, and rather than examine why it was that she did that or was able to tap into that I think it is best just to let sleeping dogs lie. There is just no way that I could survive with someone who could evoke those kinds of reactions from me.

Today was supposed to be a celebration of sorts with Shadow celebrating his birthday today rather than June 1 which is his actual birthday, and the second anniversary of The Happy Bastard. Couple that with the fact that I gave my notice in at The Workout yesterday and am in the process of migrating my membership to The Mayfair Club on Woodbine close to my home and today was indeed meant to be a lot of fun. I should have seen it coming, of course.

More tomorrow maybe.